From the recording Quiet Colors

About 'Quiet Colors'

We all carry colors with us that we sometimes keep deeply hidden from the outside world. 'Quiet Colors' is about the tension between the fear of belonging and the desire to be truly seen. It describes the internal struggle of making yourself invisible to please others, until the silence becomes too loud to ignore. This song is an ode to everyone who is still learning to turn the key to the cage and finally step into their own light.

Lyrics

In a room full of laughter, I’m learning to hide
Every word that could slip, every truth locked inside
They’re talking in certainty, drawing their lines
While I’m tracing my heartbeat between all the signs

I shrink when they speak like there’s only one way
Like love has a limit, like I have to stay
A shadow of someone they’d rather believe
So I smile and I nod, and I quietly leave

I wear my colors where nobody sees
Folded in silence, brought down to my knees
Afraid of the echoes, the words they might say
If I let who I am finally slip into day
So I bury the truth underneath all the fear
While screaming inside, “I just wish you could hear”
But the shame is a cage, and I’m holding the key
Still too scared of the world to just let myself be

Every glance feels like judgment, every joke like a knife
Cutting deep into places I’ve hidden my life
They don’t know the battles I fight in my head
How I rewrite my story to keep it unsaid

I learned how to soften the way that I talk
How to change how I stand, how I move, how I walk
Just to fit in the frame they’ve decided is right
While I’m fading to gray in the middle of light

I wear my colors where nobody sees
Folded in silence, brought down to my knees
Afraid of the echoes, the words they might say
If I let who I am finally slip into day
So I bury the truth underneath all the fear
While screaming inside, “I just wish you could hear”
But the shame is a cage, and I’m holding the key
Still too scared of the world to just let myself be

What if the silence is louder than hate?
What if I’m losing myself while I wait?
For a moment that feels like it’s safe to exist
Without fear on my tongue, without lies in my chest

And maybe the risk is the only way through
Even if breaking means breaking their view
‘Cause a life in the shadows is slowly erased
And I’m tired of hiding my own face

I’ll wear my colors, even if I shake
Even if love is a risk that I take
Let the truth fall like rain, let it wash over me
I’m done being someone I don’t want to be
If they turn away, if they don’t understand
I’ll still hold my heart steady in my own hands
‘Cause the shame was a cage, but I’m learning to see
The door’s always been open—
It was waiting for me